US

Fetched by carriages of distance, we met through the eyes of different colours
Orbiting in our own galaxies, both wishing to meet in time, though not knowing that it was our planets that would collide.

Clueless to common cloud, drifters of space alike, the day surmised would no longer be unknown.
Father time himself, charted a peculiar course , with hair pin turns & death defying hills.

26-12-07 : Both landed in a common place
My eyes wild, bewildered to each sight beheld...stepping closely to a begin i deemed my "pair"
Though in the midst of this human fair, another alien to me appears...

Face usually lit, dimples deep...greeted with a high strung note:- "HI! how you doing?"
It happened so fast, i can't remember if we hugged, but i do know that my pair was there looking on closely.

We exchanged words briefly; knowing little of the coded language i heard from her lips.
"Bye, hope to see you lata" i believe were my words...but not hoping at all, for my frequencies we set to a different receiver.

Father time looked and grinned, for this wasn't enough...another wind he charted for our sails to meet once more.

Main Street (the tunnel)
Dark and dim, the aliens meet again...this time with a timely hug, though now closer than i expected, my mind drifts still! never anchoring to the "host" at hand...

"Are you staying? cause im just getting into the club!" slipping words of question from her lips
"No!" my reply; "i've got to get in now...my time has gone, don't worry! we'll meet up sometime"

Since, we've launched and flew and sailed again! never remembering the reason why we haven't stuck close. But as the saying goes, "Good things come to those who waits" but, what happens to the person that has no clue, that a "good thing" is looking at you!!?

Once more, Father time waves his wand, pleading with the wind to play his song
Little and little, some steps we've missed, but now and everlasting here come's our "twist"

22-31 /08/08
the season of the "arts", coupled with meeting and greeting...little did i know that these days defined change in "our" lives

We've walked in each others paths more often, with each meet, sparks intensify causing mutual attractions to stir, shunning mine were first and foremost! for i was not about to roll off orbit again!

Closer and closer father time brought "us"...until night and day has waxed "Us" firm

Amazing how thinking turn to whispers...how whispers come to talking, and now talkings turn to....priceless, prizeless connection of synced hearts.

Now......they're not enough hours in the day, for US to say what we have to say!
They're not enough days in the week, for "US" to laugh, sing and speak!

I'm loving the feeling or this new term "US"
I'm praying and hoping that this "Us" is not L"US"T!

DIE me!!

Every second... testimony to another miracle called life...
Though with each drawn breathe of satisfaction... it's often used to conjure thoughts of my coming death.

Daily i "DIE"! having no reason to wonder if this is my final destiny.
I've lived many lives, only to die to each one daily.

Abstract visions of cruel misery, some of which also i pass peacefully...
why do these visions consume me!? the agony of seeing me...as "no more"

Coupled to my "deaths" in life, i simulate the future as though current reality...
With eyes open wide, in my own world, i rule with a golden fist
Determined only to "develop & conquer" that which is written in the pages in my book of destiny

Heart beats faster, sending tons of adrenaline to give life to my virtual future...
I'm now breathing the air of my not too distant present....then...

I die again!!

Signs of the time, of my unfolding journey to greatness...
patient thoughts, with eager pacing steps! Often one's deemed "U" turns, nevertheless, a movement was made to further prepare me for what's to come.

So death to me though inevitable
visions to me though inescapable
is equal to a prepped, conditioned heart ....palpitating on course towards my predestined status...
until my final, final breath

Enlarged, powerful hence honored...
Remember the name! for it is ordained for fame.

Absent hands...why?

why should i force your hand?
as a matter of fact where is it?...where are they? where are your hands?

Feeble lip actions don't do the trick!!
i need to be reminded that i can be gripped and stimulated by a simple flick!

Roaming hands, intentional hands, unassuming hands!!

I felt wrong not to say, hence my curiosity to stay... a bit longer
my reluctance...my consequential disclosure!!

"where are your hands!?" For i got selfish of my feelings...
needing, and pleading mentally...sending signals or old, only not to be read by the somewhat "naive mind"
"Surprised!...baffled!...unexpected!"
similar to a popular card game, your "bluff" was called...

"Don't trouble trouble, till trouble trouble you" my granny used to say...
"I'm sorry darling, but longer, i cannot stay..."

Selfish my thinking, disappointed my demeanor , unsatisfied my being....

SO NOW!!!....answer me this, are you able with the consequences?

Yourself Mirrored

I've laughed the laugh of silence...

Jarring chuckles in the ear of my listeners!
Eyes, set dim, face a flat, expression "useless"

A solider like tramp from front to back, i walk, casting eyes neither left or right!
A silent stampede of my reluctance, evident in my appearance!

Though docile! my presence causes massive chaos in the simple minded...
as though i brandished guns of war & weapons of mass destruction...

Yet I only wore semi knitted brows, and a dissatisfied smirk..."because i was groggy..."
yet to them, i seemed like the devil's spawn...spewing scents of grudge & hatred, slinging spikes and daggers to all in my way!!

"Why read my mind!... make assumptions of my thoughts... then cast them on me, as though I conceived them!? Brand me with your thwarted thoughts of your uncanny reactions to a similar situations!"

"Then you call me devil!, then you call me bad!! then you call me rude!!!"

Take the plank out of your eye, before you warn me about the flint in mine!!...
For it is yourself you see, when you throw your remarks at me.

You throw stones at the mirror, for the image that you behold baffles you...
You cannot believe that it is your own demons you battle, and you try to manifest in ME!

Like the wind

Restless...
I've blown in the lives of many, touching thousands with a single blow
yet I've hurt no one enough to think that i would be remembered!!

"Just another passing breeze, just another brushing memory!"

As I've rolled, obviously gathering no moss...they've left the part out about the paths that have been created...for others to follow!

But i haven't stayed long enough to receive my due praise!

What am i!?

Am I the faceless ghost, that walks the light of day, seeking whom i may help and pass right on to gather my rewards in heaven?

Or am I the impatient beast, ranting every possibility to shreds, then regretting afterwards the first sight of want?

"I am the passing memory of many... easy to feel, fast to forget..."

"Like a needed breeze in the hot summer day, I come your way to satisfy "now" never to be remembered forever!"

Nights like this

Its nights like these that i'd liked to be kissed with the tenderness of the winds bliss. To be missed! In nights like this.

Its nights like this, i'd give my time to unwind & grind on the pillows of love new! Caressing you & fulfilling my wants needs to be in your inside!

Its nights like these I miss! Missed are nights like these! Where moonlight skates on tamed river tops, glistening eternally for man kind to see & enjoy...let alone, experience!

Its nights like these, single shelfs cleve to the dust of time! Even spiders wink at flies! Not to consume, but to resume the feeling of caring & sharing!

It's nights like these I miss my love lost! Though never found, I'm sure it's bound in that secret place! Where only I can unlock even with my lip's embrace

Nights like this I burn! Yerning for the arms of whom was meant for me! And to think I wanted nothing like this...you know...nights like this, to mope like this, to cry like this...to miss like this. I want that kiss! And tell me this! How long will this bliss exsit?

If you were here!

Today would be the perfect day to die …in your arms!!

Knit snuggly around me, warm and tight, staring into your eyes as I take my last breathes….consciously!

Before I sail away, to deep sleep, only to dream of “If you were here”

I’d take your hands, and walk you through my garden of trees, leaves and singing bees

A day to last forever from its dawn

The Sweetest flower, I would pick to match your sweet hair

Better yet, a crown I would weave for your head!

For only my Queen would walk in my Garden of dreams.

As day goes on, I’d shower you with kisses, close to a gentle stream

I’d lay with you beside the banks, to be serenaded by the waters’ deep melody!

“My queen, if only you were here!”

If you were here, we’d eat of loves bread and drink of passions wine

Eat fruits of trust and prosperity only to be fed and fed again of new love

Fresh love! LOVE EVERLASTING!

As night closes in, I’d clothe you in the moon’s light, glittered with the stars

Powdered with the silky clouds,

Your dress though black as night, hugs and bends with your every step and curve.

“Perfect! My queen…I wish you’d draw near!!”

Come closer to me,

As we dance in our loves’ moonlight

Full and bright

Ahh!! Such a shadow less night of doubts and fears and mistrust

The surest of night’s, the brightest of lights in this moon!!

Our moon of love.

Your eyes caught mine in a whispering glance for love to be shared!!

Our love peaks!

As the moon stands bright, alight on top of the world

Right over our once separate bodies, now waxed together.

Heat of pleasure, gripped as firm as foundations cast.

“My queen, don’t leave me here!”

As grass as lush and soft as sheets

We lay, we lay! Eyes pasted on our common friend

That moon! That moon! it causes a lot! It serves a constant reminder

“Oh how we love that ‘spot”

But as wind glides across our bodies, I feel the cold of night,

I wake and look across just to know, my queen is out of sight!!

I wake again to realize I’m not within your arms.

I roll around, I turn and twist to scurry to my pane

Only to sigh and reminisce of that moon light again!

“I want you my Queen, I miss you so! If only you can see…

The moments we share, as time draws near…

If only you were here with me!!”

Near end

In sinking softness, as "she" would say; distant words & sound play light praises to my eardrum

Chorused melodies! mixed with tears of joy, lift the heavy doldrums of decades past
"A new day! one with bright promise and unity...a new day has birthed!...all mankind must realize join hands to step even closer to global peace!"

Never have i seen the entire world hold it's breath to behold the result of some!

"Little have i seen!" as history writes itself in present pages, never to be forgotten for another trillion years, as "shades" have been melted to be made equal to marrow, bone & flesh!

"Funny isn't it!" we've wished, hoped and prayed for such a day. Some thought that it would've never been in this life time! but indeed..."the revolution has been televised!"

Call me 'skeptic'! but i for one, won't give in yet! at least not till the fat lady sings...for something is not right in my core!

I know i will be one from many with this opinion, but remember i said; "the stage is set, the lights have dimmed...it's drawing near...can't you hear!...the end is drawing near!!

Flash

click!
it ran past again!...the thought of you kissing on "me"!
click! click!
wilder, hotter this time! the flash of past, hmmm the past! that seems to come to corrupt the present!

move closer! touch longer! hold tighter...
Webbed embraced, lingering smacks...roaming hands! Click! Click!...

from wrong to right to wrong to right to wrong to hell no! flash past....flash gone, temporarily blinded eyes! but photographic memory, restores and recalls past "images"

tight knit lips, to tumbling hands...moves now to knotted legs, holding firm a "second guess!"

wrong! right!..no wrong...right!.....THIS is WRONG!...can't be done...shouldn't be done!
but it feels sooooooooo gooooooooooood...

Click! Click! Boom!!!
you wouldn't believe what flashed!!.... it's the reason why....that's right
it's more like; "he stands, flowing his words in the waiting, enticed ears of them! gives warning to a segment of this "recital"

proceeds to call her to stage!..."Oh My God!" it's her!...the one that caught my eye! the one that threw her eyes too.

quietly standing in the dimmest of light...he proceeds to flow, and animate words, stroking the minds' canvas, causing steam to build! he takes two steps! and ...."flashes" the crowd with his present....a rich kiss shared!! causing forgetfulness to take command!!

My oh my!...what pictures of fond memories, now mixed with my misery of another "sista"

H.I.M V3

Upon reaching my hoped destiny, I'm not sure i want to keep this state!

Once gasping for "unpopular air" that of shades, corners & back benches. My lungs fail me! breathing rapidly, and short, I'm dazed by my uncanny impressions, most of which are unintentional.

I've acquired version 3

I'm now likely to not appear or even care about the "front line" but with every action, there is an equal "reaction"

Now retired from the "game", it seems as though, those on the "side line" had their own thing going on....obviously not aware to that, i set my "single" sail, only to be carried into a world of rustling winds and thirsty seas.

All sorts of "bottled messages" bump my ship, in attempt to cling to my nets!

Surely the time and vessel has past!

H.I.M vessel 2...LONG GONE!!!

Behold H.I.M vessel 3 is alive, well & not wanting your "unnecessary" baggage.

28/06/07

Barred! only to cringe at the sight of freedom!
i walk the plank for no one but myself, stepping each time closer to an unfailing destiny.

"why watch me wonder?" once in your grasp, I've rolled, in and out, up & down round & round in your arms...never once drawing near to be recognized!

"I've moved" to distant land, connected only by thin strings and strokes of keys.
Although gone far, scents & glimpses of tomorrow, march the isles of your heart!

"I've returned!" my feet on solid ground that we both share; but not ours
Neither of us can bear the burden of forgetting! more you than me, for i was washed by waters of uncertainty, dried by rumor & doubt.

"How was i to know?" that each step away, each trodden path of ignorance, armed a spear, destined to thrust through and through your secrets.

Concealed admiration, Hidden love, secret passion; all keys to your current demise

Now prisoner to your own lust, lashed and bruised by procrastination, locked in! by tainted windows of your own blood, tinted by a dim view of hope.

"I emerge!" baring gift of friendship and other possibilities...
"what will be your cry this time?" for i may carry no fruits of forgiveness...i doubt i'll blossom compassion, AGAIN! will not be an option"

Bare! the burden of exhile, exposed you to the punishing winds of unmentioned love!

Speak

Now back from whence i came,
to lines & strokes, pink vertically; blue horizontally

I roll my thoughts, in curves, lines, dots & shapes
to paint another masterpiece.

Glancing slightly, left to right; my "minds eye" now focused
Deeply measuring thoughts, feelings & atmosphere to recreate my current emotion

Surrounded by tall, distant shadows, air of wonder and the smell of life
my piece takes shape, slowly but surely.

Coloured with greatness, shaded with patience, lined with gratitude
"Almost done!" i think to myself

The once empty canvas, now filled by sentences to paragraphs "yet another page!"

Scribbled & scratched only to rest in my life's' history, only to be revealed in the light of your listening ear

"Hear me!, hear me loud!, hear me clear! for i have spoken for years without audience!
Now let my thoughts be yours!

The thoughts of the unheard man!"