Resolute

Resolute
the winds of time has changed...

Charted course, shifted bearings times 7
7 times over i've replaced myself with new things
ready for the challenge
i know it will come...

RESOLTE...
RESOLUTE i say

Now goin against the world current
Bashing waves beneath my bow
Breaking strong winds against my sails...
attempting to push me further off

Compassed about me the racking thunders
rolling my head ablunder

Resolute i say...though the storms come
though the ride gets rough...
i must prevail...
i must withstand

I am resolute...despite...
I am despiser of ruckus
I am the overcomer...
I am RESOLUTE!!

The "Word"...

Never before has my spirit connected to words like this
"I lived before i was formed"

Now do i begin to know my spirit, and why it feels so familiar
"I lived before i was formed"

In the beginning, it was all "Words"
WORDS that called me
WORDS that formed me
WORDS that made me
WORDS that broke me
WORDS that caused me to run
WORDS that i wrote to live
WORDS that gives me life as i read
WORDS that takes me high as i wait
WORDS that brought me to this page, that you read!

You read my words...now read them clearer!!
I AM POWERFUL!!
Life and death abides in my tongue so don't mess with me!

I AM GREAT! I profess that which you cannot see, because my words create!
My words cause nature and life to unite as one in anything!

I AM WORDS!
WORDS that pronounce from will!
WORDS that i have to give account for!!
WORDS that i may not speak, for if wasted i can never regain

My breath is precious
Never before have i connected my spirit to words
but it has been words from the very beginning
It's the words i've collected from my Father
"GO!! and TEACH!! THE WORD!!"

The word is clear!!
Read them CLEARER
HEAR THEM CLEARER!
FEEL THEM CLEARER!
MY WORDS ARE POWERFUL

Poetry has quickened me through Godly favour
Before, i wasted them with fantasies and near Eulogies
But i'm wiser now

I AM WHAT I SAY I AM!
I AM POWERFUL
that's the WORD!

I speak into being that which i think!
Hence i guard my mind with "THE WORD"
PROTECTION and MERCY for my soul

I AM THE WORD!!
THE WORD THAT LIVES IN ME
I AM LIFE!
KNOW ME!

THE WORD IS...
"GO! and TEACH...the WORD!!"

The Me in ME!

Between the page and me, the screen and me
comes the fog

Between me and me through poetry
i have to see what’s within

I see the me, but not the me i see through lights and mirrors
Instead i see the spirit that dwells, but quelled only to shout with supervision

I feel the pull of me to me
The me i want to be, but cannot because it's outside of me!!

You see, the Me i am, is not the me i should be
The me i am to be, hangs my head in shame
Clutching the vain of life to put the death the me you see!!

No explanations...no!! no further explanation should i offer
The me i be, be screening the poetry that lives, that can kill
The me i be, be shrugging false remarks of poetry, no defense offered
The me i be, be killing Me!!
Be killing me....the me i be!!

I pray to be the me i should
To slay the ignorant and bless the willing
Stand on that pedestal to lead the weak
Be the revolution!!
Me the revolution!!

No longer to be defined by you!
No longer to run and hide from you!
No longer to rethink, redo, or comfort you!!
Just tell it like it is!!

The me i be, be gone soon
The me in me...
"Hello!"

Think AGAIN!

I...I looked!
I looked with eyes
with eyes...with eyes i thought not

I thought NOT...i thought not that my eyes would
deceive me, lure me, consume me then refuse me
I thought NOT! I think again!!

I...I looked
I Looked with eyes but differently
Differently seeing what i thought i saw!!
I thought too quick!!
I THINK AGAIN!!

I...I paved
I paved a way to get what i thought i saw
But broke a ring in my way
A promise i kept, a string i tied!
I THINK AGAIN!

Swore to think, than to THINK AGAIN!

I led the blind to ditch again
i tore the page, but had no pen
i took you there, but hadn't to spend!!
I HAD TO THINK AGAIN!!

why did i think i saw a "puddy cat"
To which i knew it would end
I have to think again

Your heart you didn't lend!
But gave willingly to a whim that wouldn't be

Momentarily! i was yours "i didn't think"
Intentionally...cunningly
seeking, raping, eating!

NOT THINKING! I'd have to THINK AGAIN!!

These Drops

These light drops only drip to remind
One clear, velvet sky, which twined the car we stole.

Tucked in a corne to suit
only to join others where we thought we'd be alone

These drops turned vapour in our nostrils
we inhaled the steam of love

We exhaled the ectasy we thought and fueled the dream we lived
these light drops, vlew light winds to our cheeks
Shimmering summer kisses in mid winter

The drips of these drops seasoned our bodies
Marinated our love to a baking point

These drops remind me of seconds
Seconds away from what we wanted
Held snuggly in the back of a car!
Cares pasted to the window, like the fog on the walls

Seconds turned hugs to kisses, kisses to strokes
Strokes to the smacking of satisfied occupants

Needy for "seconds", time flew by too quickly.
"no greed we'd heed!!"
WE'll kiss to sweat another day
AND SO WE DID!!!

These drops remind me of lollipops
These drips remind me of us!!

Kiss me

I'm grabbing my sheets
wishing it were your hair!
so i can fill my lungs with the scent of you!

So i can breathe you and you can be in me
to give me life!

Because i want to live you and live with you inside my heart
Without you it stops beating
Cause you took my breathe away with your tender kisses.

I beg to stay alive!
So won't you kiss me again!

Watch the hour

It had to be a night like this!
A still night
Where no creature lurked
Where the world stood still
Sensing the atmosphere and the stratosphere
Standing in awe and anxiety!
Held it’s breathe as he knelt and prayed!
“Father, let this cup pass from me!”

Like Atlas! The entire world hung on his flesh
Tarrying about his body is the gloom, murk and puss of our sins.
The waste and boiling matter of our infirmities
He knelt and prayed;
“Father! Let this cup pass…”

Coming to grips with will;
Even the Son of God shook.
“It’s too much! Find another LAMB!!”

Doubts and testing’s fill the air with its stench
Blocking the passage of trueness and purpose

It must be a night like this!
Blood filled tears, dropping in the solemn surrender;
No more can he bare the scar of death
Mankind has held as destiny

On high, a misty murky sky gave sight
To the one on the throne, silently listening to his seed speak

“Father, don’t you hear me! Let this cup pass…
My will be done, not yours BUT MINE!

It must be a night like this
Where only kisses are blown to fallen ears
Where cocks crow in the dark night
Where men no longer watch the hour

It must be a night like this
That the moon shone on the cross roads to life and death
Where the sky could’ve swallowed the earth
Where men could no longer stay to pray

It must be a night like this
It must be a night like this
Where flesh grew strong and lives were saved with blood and words
“It is Finished!!”

Let this cup pass!! (The lord's prayer)

Let this cup pass!!
Father! Let this cup pass
This burden, this task
Let it pass!!

This weight is too great
Father, let this cup pass
their cries, hear them cry
Smell the stench of their sins
CAN YOU FEEL THIS!?

The yoke of their sin is great
FATHER! LET THIS CUP PASS!!
MUST BLOOD BE SHED, MUST MY BLOOD BE SHED
MY BONES BROKEN, MY FLESH TORN
ALL FOR THEIR SINS TO BE FORGIVEN!?

THIS BURDEN, THIS TASK! LET THIS CUP PASS
My father, cast their trespasses to the sea
Forgotten, forever
I wish not to drink of my own blood
LET THIS CUP PASS!!

Strengthen me I pray
For the hour draws nigh
Neither shall I be tempted to let this pass
My Father! Not my will, but Thine be done!!

WTF!!

WHAT THE F*** DO YOU DO!!?

Words that wrenched my spine
Like lying on a bed of nails

WHAT THE F*** DO YOU DO!?
To add insult to injury, repeated again!

WHAT THE F*** DO YOU DO!?
Now etched in my mind, the words launch investigation from the “investigator”

TRUE!! WHAT THE F*** IS DONE!?
Other than curse the bridges I’m about to cross!!
Other than suppress the good I have inside!!
OTHER THAN CREATE THE CHAOS SURROUNDING MY DAY
ALL YOU DO IS COOK!?

Too busy crushing the heads of those fighting to hold
Before all else is lost!!
The question is asked again!!
“WHAT THE F*** DO YOU DO!?”

The final utterance delivered, shocked the audience, surprised the eavesdroppers!!
The question posed by the epitome of current destruction
Releasing legions to hold back the positive and blessed words once spoken to command the surrounding
Launching a territorial battle, that of light and that of darkness

With 6 words explodes to pieces
Decades of principles
Never before done, even in the shortest of fuses!!

Strangling life itself!
Striking a seed that was well on it’s way to bare fruit for you to eat from

An unnecessary spook in the wheel…
SET BACK = GOD KNOWS HOW MANY YEARS!!
So I ask myself questions to ask you

CAN WE NOT REACT THE SAME!?
DON’T YOU THINK I DO WITHOUT YOU!?
CAN’T YOU SEE YOU’RE THE CAUSE OF ALL THIS AND MORE!?

Now ask yourself this: WHAT THE F*** HAVE YOU DONE?

MY SKIN

He said I was made in his image and likeness
But I often question my form!

I imagine the mystery behind my making
Tempered to endure the knives and spears of the times

Laid to connect, bone to joint, hallowed sturdy with softness
Riddled with more softness to be tough and standing

Clad with “skin” but mine is special…
You see my “skin” has been tempered in the hottest fire…”Words”

Shot at day by day, by insults and discouragement
Stretched by lies and pierced with disappointments

All done to test my metal…my metal skin!!!
To repel the “1985” shit to centuries beyond
It was prepared for the days that hands or legs didn’t do the hurting
But invisible words!!

Looking like imps
they gathered like locust and ate away at my soul
Seeping under my skin through the passages I left unguarded.

My brain bleed as the leeches sucked my being and popped with gluttony
Overfed with my crying blood

Trying to bar the words with my skin…
My mind grew tired and dropped all defenses

Although not thrown at me!!
They fill the sphere with the fog of poison, drying my hopes out
Vapor by vapor…as my mind grew hot, burning overtime to send my spirit far enough
To a safe! Quiet! Humane place

But the clamps drew tight! And drilled the words into my eardrum
Pressing and grinding….bursting my mind away!!
BLOOD EVERYWHERE!!

All my skin did was grow hot till ice cold
My heart along with it!

As scream after scream, tumble after tumble, snarl after cuss they bled me!
Rendered lifeless on my bed, I cry to save my mind!!
“HOW COULD IT BE CALM!?”
Black blood pumps from my heart when bombarded by this plague of senseless words!!

No defense can be devised for such an ambush
All that can be done, is react when attacked!!
But how can I fight with my blood!
That which gives me life, is killing me slowly!

If my skin can cover or even grow
To blind,deaf and mute me…
My heart would be much warmer

So as not to grow colder…
Hear nothing
See nothing
Say nothing!!
Allow me to add…live warmer!!

For I’ve lived true lies and lives that weren’t true!
Why am I so cold, maybe heartless!?

I’ve had to give it away so that my soul can live
But my skin can stand the test till my heart returns
And with it’s return! My mind will be renewed

I pray the words will end, so my heart and mind can be at peace

Oracle

Tired wings have flown afar

Now soaring home to nest

While sailing in the blue abyss

I froze within my chest

Long I’ve flown and soared and flew

To destinies untold

But this course was different!

This flight I braved, real BOLD!!

I saw her face from high

Never looked twice and even considered

But a scent was sent to stir my spirit

That something was in the making!!

I circled for sometime before I decided to land

Little did I know this time, there was a mystic plan

She bore a face as plain as the sun

Her movement with no intent

I drew a little closer, to understand what she meant

Her eyes, fixed with fair view directly into mine

And as she spoke and rolled her tongue, she began to break my spine

She spoke of things that troubled me, I thought I alone had known

As she continued speaking my tears began to glue

Hurts unfold, my blood ran cold

I thought I wrote a case!

But oracle sat there…

Fixing me…

Putting my heart in place

She sensed stuff!!

Stuff I hid for years

Lost in the dust of time, fed by the juice of mind

To stay dead! To be cold! To live hard!!

Oracle said she felt me!

She felt my weight, my pain afloat on a distant prayer

Sailing!

Seeking the master, just to hear! Just to prop it up!!

At least for my hearts’ sake!

“I was cold and alone up there!” I cried

“never to return to this place! Seeking never to live again under these circumstances!”

“You’re hard!” I’m told; “You’re baring too much!

You’re expecting too high!!”

The fleshy heart wants to burst out and love again

But!! They’re too many stitches that might tear

Wounds that never healed!!

As warm tears flood my eyes

Heat of memories that serve to remind me of why I was cold

I sprung a crack within my core, need more to wean me back to life!

She pried!

But only to wrench the clamp about my heart

She tried with the cease, cleared some rust!!

“What’s in this Oracle??

Can I trust!?”

Ashes to coldness, dust to brush, the oracle has spoken

Trust I must!!