Never enough

It has not come to that place of satisfaction.
Nothing can suffice

At will and in danger of an insatiable appetite.
Wanting more and more

Need not consume
Living on the company of a thought
Just the illusion of having

The more you do, is the more nothing is done!
The eternal play is left on loop
Adding more and more to the plate of life

Nothing has satisfied
Nothing can satisfy!!
Feeling empty as the feast swells larger

I can never do enough
Always wanting more of myself
Searching in a bottomless pit
In an endless quest for the end

Never enough!
Enough is never
Yet I thirst for it

Only to know it cannot satisfy
But yet...
I thirst!!

Alone

This will have no bearing on feelings still
Alone at will with no return to warmth
Bashful, crazy memories haunt us

Slipping slowly back to rigid emotions that pick away fear
Staring right back at "happy" times that grew no fulfilment

I'm locked in the cage of my own heart
Running mad in the sorrow of pent passion
Spewing to love again with no weight to carry

Scared of my own love that consumes worlds on end
Where has the world gone! Pushing me to the edge of a cliff

Give me wings so I can soar in the height of no return
Too far gone! I won't give love a chance

Monk to me and me
Alone to be
To be alone with no one to call my own

As the heart cries no tears
Alone!
Alone I will be with my emotions
Alone to dream who that will be
Alone... With me!

Fallen no more

Fallen off your own
no one to turn to but the shadow alongside you
no one to pick you up and dust you off

fallen off your own
no one to lay blame on
the entire room is empty with you and your thoughts that blame "YOU!"

fallen off your own
drives your ego into fury
makes your spirit sick and cries

fallen off your own
kissing dust and being swallowed
a shattered shaken miserable soul

Fallen!
doing bad all by yourself
dreaming problems just to feel better

making enemies of loved ones
breaking hearts and feelings to live on
feeling stronger in the belly of the beast

Swallowed!
wallowing in the company of despair
dressed in shards of broken emotion
no friend to identify the pieces

Alone! Fallen Alone!
tripped on your own ego
popped off your own head being swollen
gettin high on the air that you breath

a duplicate of yourself
you try to double the numbers
making everything negative your friend

rolling with renegades
feeding the sharks of fools
growing, getting colder everyday

Fallen!
in that quite moment
that small still voice whispers
"Get up"

Awaken!
shaking from the daze
can't live with your mind anymore
silence is too loud a call on your ear

the voices all scream at you
tugging you back
pulling you back
rushing your memory of the moments you've shared

how happy you seemed in blindness and misery
contemplating the mix of things
tryin to split with things

Risen!
no longer on the ground
now happy with no frown
only shining with that crown of laughter

Thinkings of back then are no more
Fallen! no more
Fallen no more!

Calling

it calls deeper...
within the clamour of mixed thoughts and voices
it calls deeper

one can never escape the destiny to which it was created for
neither can a man out run his shadow
the more you run, is the more it clings to you

it speaks clearer...
in silence it screams echoes
churning all that was once alseep
caressing the longing and emptiness that swells

sooth yourself in my arms
let me speak to you
drink my voice
let me carry your sorrows

I call for you!
you hear me call...
be not confused! be not ashamed

i've called you for such a time as this
where all rides heavier
the entire world shakes
yet you hear my still, calm voice

Call to me...
listen to my voice and call to me
tarry no longer for i wait for you

your booming mind, and thoughts that chime are distracting you
hear me call! i call for you!
i've called for you, i'm calling you, i will call you!

stretch your ears and grab my words
until you stand steadfast
in the power of my might

call to me...for i have called you
for such a time
such a time as this

Inside, out

you can never hold the east and the west together
its either or, neither nor

straddling the worlds of good and evil
can cause strife and triumph
the balancing act of being here and there

eyes and dreams will dim in this escapade
rolling thoughts make you wonder
straying away, away, away...

the air gets thinner in the atmosphere
you cannot breath its too mixed
nothing is still everything’s' a blur

clutching hands about your neck try to bring you back to life
impeding the feelings that boils over and over
the entire room is spinning outta control

too many things bring memories
memories of where you don’t ever wanna be
the best of both worlds can never be had

Heavy on my mind

Within and only within these hours
Would the sun set on my heart

My eyes cry no tears before this season
The running thoughts stride for the sun to hold its decent
Wishing the days drew longer

Her slipping soul reached out to me
I slipped further in despair

Covering my heart
Drowning myself in false love
The painless momentary

Never can one forget how I felt to wake to no sunrise
Opened eyes to the bleak bleak winter of my empty soul

I cried ice blocks
My hung head dropped heavier
Where my boy stalled in no warmth

The thoughts came back in the sun…
Chilling my spine and my emotion
I can never hear the ray of sun in her voice

My soul echoes…my soul hallows
My soul cries as the sun sets
I wish I had more time to love her more

To heed the cry of her slipping soul
R.I.P (E.F)

Piece by piece

Where... How...
Too fragmented for likes of normal readers
Too broken! Too sparsed!

When it goes... The mind itself rotates
Wind and "wind" put motion together seeks peace amoung tree tops
Why...? Gone too far!

Will make no sense of this
Mixed emotions, played feelings, changed characters
Want this! Need this to be a "shordy"

No inspiration that's worthy of my pen
Done with you... Till help comes crawling back
Gone... Gone...Gone

Too filled to make sense
Fragmented!
No Space to claim a Page

No space!
No space for new
No not new you

Oblivious, Oblivion

Walking with a burden that was never held
gliding on a tight rope that's as wide a canyon
in this state, there is no pain
only oblivion

many days saw her hugging her thoughts
sleeping with her imagery
arguing with the mirror
walking in his shadow

she wrote letters that were never posted
blew kisses that never flew
fluttered without leaving the ground
in this state, there is no pain
only oblivion

She took his face everywhere
pasted it on every fling and voyage
smiling to herself in words it spoke on the shoulder of another
digging deeper and deeper in her world with him

"when will i ever tell him?
what would i ever do?
how would i ever love him?
where will he know it's true?"

now the time has come
"where has the time gone"
"i thought you always knew?"
...

you shared some many days with me
you slept so many nights
i thought you always knew...
that i.... yes... I
Love you
...

I always walked without the burden...
without the burden of her love
without the knowledge of her glare
without the terrible of her stare

with ever step i took
it was away i strayed
strayed in the arms of another
never...knowing...hers

though you've held me, i've never felt your arms
now she's gone
with me never knowing
in this state...
I'm still Oblivious