Thursday, June 27, 2013

Broken vessel

We reside in the danger of broken vessels.
Where each looks upon the other
longing for the understanding and comfort of the other
In full view of their brokeness.

Who gets more sympathy?
who heals before the other?
That doesn't matter!
We both bare pain, we both bare pain!

And as we reach out to touch the other
the feeling is pure
but the memory of that touch on that spot offends.

"you caused me pain!"
this must drive you insane
...So will their be understanding?
In full view of brokeness,
There is an unspoken truth.

"i wish you no harm!"
but the memory of that touch sure doesn't feel that way...
The memory of that offence
When fingers glide across scales of scars

Will we ever forget?
This flesh will allow no further harm
There's no more room for new scabs
So are we to build on old sores?

Jaded emotions that harbor many a moment
None with your name, but all just the same
Jaded! Shattered and dismayed
Asking questions of a new page

We reside in the danger of broken vessels
But must we stay there?
Life seeker in the walls of a sharded climb
Each cut deters but is paved to our wholeness

We may reside and die not knowing
Not knowing the scent of new love
Not knowing how close we were
Not knowing how much we meant

Who's going to heal?
Why must we reside in this jaded memory?
Vessel...you choose
Which route must be used.

Monday, June 24, 2013

In awe

Nothing wanted to go wrong for everything was...
Right... at the time when the moon peaked...
I...peeked above my glasses at the right time...
To greet you the way you wanted me to...

So close to you I felt my heart beat...in my hands
in my hands... that's where you were?
This time...Beating to the same rhythm
Like the one that synced our minds

We Walked the walk
We talked the talk till we sat and dined
To a huge helping of one
and the other!

Thine be the glory of a deep love story
Ontop of social constructs and surely
Between searching questions, that were mandatory

Anxiety at its best!
Through strong stares and willfull articulation
There was a notion that begged the question
"Why won't you kiss me already?!"

But kissed we have!
I've kissed the mind of a kindren soul
That soothing resonance that makes me...
...hold... my...breath

when our eyes met...
Like poetry
You embodied me

Soulful yet helpless in a stare so deep
How can one stand on a hill so steep?
A downward slide to this golden creek
Where soliloquy and imagery finally meet

Broad strokes, turn narrow
While joy takes sorrow
You drink, I swallow
The wine I'd follow just to have a glass

The class with which you turn a pen without a page
You engage my every sense, you've reached the inner stage
to see a winery of untamed pleasantries

We've shared such fond memories in just our meeting
What if it were 10...or 20...or Zen!
But there I go again
Riding the raise of your brow
In a fixed stare to guide a returned glare to your lips

The sweetest words unsaid
Everything is happening in my head
Or is it yours?

I feel it ours...
As hours pass with no stopping
No stopping to take a breath from these unsaid words
Right now I'm...breathless

I "sigh" in my need to breathe
Wishing never to say goodbye
To stay in that air that's mine
That's yours... for hours and hours
Until I can't breathe again...
I swear it true...
I'm in awe of you!

Monday, June 10, 2013

I'm here...now

My son!
I know what you must be feeling that this moment
Life has not been kind to you, and for this I'm sorry

"Sorry!" - a word often misused, with no real meaning behind it
"Sorry" - this word cannot be used to erase your pain
This word cannot distinguish the anguish you harbor
The many empty days it filled
The cold nights it held your hand and burnt you to sleep
This anger that has become your friend
I'm sorry I let it consume you

Yes I am angry
 Angry at you
Angry at the world
Angry at dads
Angry at the father I never had
My anger consumes me and makes me sad
Makes me mad!
MAKES ME WANNA GRAB
EVERY DAD!
AND FILL THAT VOID
THAT I CANT  AVOID
DAMN YOU DADDY
DAMN YOU!

If I could start it all over again, I would take it all back!
This does sound cliche
A page of faceless words
On a random day
Delivered to a nomad's address on the streets of dispear

"Why didn't he say them himself?"
"Why didn't he find me before?"
"Why didn't he stay?"
"Did he ever love me?"

I want you to know, I know these questions reside.
These questions, all of which I'll answer in time, but FIRST
Will you allow me to say I'm sorry and would you believe me?
To find the courage to face a boy, now a man!
Hardened by life's lessons without me
To ask him to accept me... back?

DADDY I WANT TO FOR GIVE
BUT ONLY IF YOU HAD GIVE……N
ME SOME OF YOUR TIME
INCULCATED VALUES AND TRANSFORMED MY MIND
IT’S ME YOUR SON
AM I SO DISCOURAGING TO LOOK UPON?
THE PAIN YOU CAUSED IT’S NO FUN
I WALKED I PACED I RAN
TO FIND YOU, BUT I FOUND THE GUN
I FOUND THE BOTTLE
I FOUND THE NEEDLE 
I FOUND THE PRISON CELL
I FOUND DIS SMELL
I FOUND HELL!!
BUT I GUESS I CANT LIVE
IF I CHOOSE NOT TO FORGIVE
BUT I GUESS I CANT LIVE IF I CHOOSE NOT TO FORGIVE(SLOWLY)

I know it will be hard, and i want to do my part.
To help you start again, "like me"
To give you love where you've had hate
to give you joy where you've had pain
For us to mend and be Father and son again!

Allow me to work from scratch!
to slave to gain your trust
because I've left you when you needed me most
here i am! as your prodigal Father
Forgive me my Son! Please!! 

I forgive you Daddy….(slowly)….

Written by KingLeonidas and Mark luke Edwards

True season

Spoken in true season
The soul silently cried its tears
Dropped on the ears and hands of unfamiliar men
Coaxing words that lingered through the ages

Spoken in true season
Dwindling life in the throes of turmoil
Mine fields scatter as mind feels
Mind feels responsible for all hindrances

Spoken in true season
A restless soul finds peace
In what was first words of life
Are now life in words

Spoken in true season
Denouncements were favoured
Disgusting words to hear oneself utter
Though each syllable made sight clearer

Spoken in true season
A son stumbles in the SON
Clarion call in a chorus of voices
Called and now used to call more to bare

Spoken in true season
Serverance and death looms
Birthing new life and new seasons
Pain must be felt to redeem purpose

Spoken in true season
Shackles fall all around
New realisation of hinderances abound
The spirit fights to live all the way

Spoken in true season
Flesh dies again
Familiar feelings tried again
Lessons taught and tests arise

Spoken in true season
Prophecy hands the task
This season will not last
"Your latter shall be greater than your past"

Spoken in true season
The beginning will not be easy
Strength has been provided
The spirits wisdom will see you succeed

Spoken in true season
These lessons were your reason
Called for such a time as this
This is the life you're born to live

Speak in your season
For this is the reason
You've stayed alive to give