Muddy Kiss

Long the road to end a distant night,

Tense the atmosphere of dim lit sight

Shared by others the foggy mist, wondereth the mind for a good night kiss

Crossed the bridge from tarmac to wood; pushed the thought as much as he could

"thought through...planned...wasn't even the case, calls of "i want to go home" filled the air and space

Stuck now, more than words, my mischievous hands afloat; wondering how!, when! and where! you're going to do this!...you goat!

Having feelings that my madness is shared, as a hole is dug & a "roller" is stuck in gear...
I froze and didn't know what to do; but "I" after a while, i joined the gear pushers too...!

Now out of the "first" hole; that mission complete, i walk towards my next gigantic feat

Giddy eyes and mud ridden shoes, i stepped towards the bridge assured no "blues"
Damped lips and chilly teeth...from the glass that calmed my hand; "i made a promise! i thought to myself" but really...who gives a damn!!

i stretch and stretched and stretched some more! in playful and friendly bliss, i couldn't stretch any further, for after all we kissed!

We feel the pull and tug of lips; "how could this not start! why should it even end like this!?"

Then we glide away both staring deep; "hmm...wow...goodnight!" said the sheep!

Almost like a spirit i glide away...thinking heavily for the "next" day!

"I fought it for long!" i cannot lie, to its too much to see that honey cry!

Who would've thought a night like this, would of lead us straight to a "Muddy Kiss!"



signed by: one unsatisfied customer! longer is better!

My "tro-wiz-iks"

"Where are you!?" curious questioning of a wondering mind..."I'm in town! heading to the cafe" swift response from the affectionate character...

"Can i meet you there!? i just came from there but i can come back..."with slight chuckles and self grins in between said "W mind"... "No probs...i'll be here" not exact words of the "A character" but close enough for you to get the point...

Words set in motion...restless thoughts, AGAIN! causing the roll & turn of hormones, YET AGAIN! i must reiterate....

Met...walk...climb...open...sit! Seconds melt to minutes, minutes melt to hours...hours melt to silence!? 2 added by 1...then added by a bigger "1" then added by .2!? "How did all this happen!?

I'm sure it's the question, jigging on your tongue! it'll be answered, but it's driven by 4 red wheels...and 4 question marked minds.

stand...walk...open...walk...walk...open...sit! options unable to be chosen, but more or less fixed for the "turn of events!

Now 6, inclusive of "W mind" & "A character" are joint by the magnificent 7th...( you may miss this...but remember carefully)

Ladies & gentlemen...the "relay" is about to begin...
The story goes..."W mind" is the star of the hours...trekking from one "check point" to the next...constantly making pit stops at most relevant points, but with this tiring marathon...it finally ended at the gathering of culture!...then is when my friends, i thought i had out ran my race!..."A" went her preference with .1 of .2..."W" was stuck in a rather "sticky" situation because the other (.)(point) and big "1" had to be rotated for the sake of "7th" (think you follow!, this is extremely coded...bare with me!) 7th was not supposed to be at that position in the first place! rather 7th was 1st...but things got kinda mixed up...anyway..."W" had his work cut out!

Some way or the other "W" crashed and hadn't a clue as to what to do!...so everything that played out...played on it's own...no influence whatsoever by "W" PERIOD!!!

Dealing with women...tempers flare, sarcastic statements are made...and alternatively everything goes to a speedy lull...

The night come to a close...7th left.... .1 of .2 disappears, big "1" and other (.) were shocked!...and "A" i 'thought' gave up!

Suddenly, like a wind of release, "A" gets ron-c1! or was it "W"!? in this case order doesn't matter...(lol) pinches..and smacks...and tempting slaps...of jelly soft flesh... guided the letters out of misery...forgetting all numbers and points that ever existed....


(needed to blurt this...i myself may barely understand when i revisit it...but i'm sure if your adventurous enough you may be able to crack the "Ya-vinci" code)

Signed: retired player!!!for sure!!

10 points of sheer splendor!

Scenario:
Dim lit "bachy" room with just enough room to turn around at slow pace; 1 peice of a TV, 1 half of a bed, 1 window with enough cracks for stale breeze to pass through, 1 soul reminiscing !

"Geez...it stings! just mere wind of the night makes it burn...gosh! to think that these were delivered by a human being...i feel like i was mauled!!"

words aloud in speech, only recalling the moments spent before with "another"... this is how it all happened!

Traveling towards a break that was well deserved, in the most sought state in the world! Landing in the most deprived part at the same time!...didn't quite bother me! any part was fine!

Contemplating my contact list of long lost, but now found friends, i stumble on one that led me to postpone making contact, because i felt no urgency to...

Time rolled by, days turned into weeks...then i finally decided to "link up"

"Hello!...how u doin' long time no talk!
"HEY! you're here!? how long are you here for!?
" I'm around! what are you up to?"
" We've got to catch up! I'll call you and we'll hook up!"
"I'm cool with that...later then!"
"K, bye..."

And so it began, like a scrabble game! a blank board beholds you, you tiles await you to decode its prizes...but when you decode and paint the blank board with your seemingly "right answers" you've got to refill and rethink...that damn bag with them damn "letters" blindness to the unknown "next move"

"The hook up" (i'll paint it in a poetical sense!)
1's and 0's caused the 2 parted bodies to meet in the mid winter season of the state that never sleeps...Grins of anxiety and elation filled the misty air, as eyes of expectancy met for the first time in a long time!

Conversation of past was stated on the agenda...how could you possibly get away from memory lane! steps of guesses and exhibition of the "modern world" were also revealed in the nights proceedings...no one knowing what would happen next!...time went by, and moments grew more, as the 2 "joy lights" shared memory of past and laughs of bliss, and chuckles to bare stupidity...but then...the first move was played...

I know not!, if it were the influence of the sea, the still scenery of the many bridges, like a web seemingly lit by new aged candles, or was it the smell of my shirt?

She leans towards me, playfully guiding her head towards my lap..."you don't mind do you!?" "unintentional" toying words escaped from her lips..."No! it's ok!"....misleading words of "leading intentions" proceeded from mine...yet again...our eyes met! but this time, different from the last...as though speaking to me...but i was unable to interpret the new body's language.

Conversation changes!...past crush! well noted events!...pleas for "being noticed" that went unanswered! unmarked occasions of observed sitings! all came to fore in a matter of minutes...

My mind a fire!..."what is the meaning of all this"... unexpected happenings, causing share chaos in an open mind! then i noticed...'her nails'...long enough to handle, sharp enough to please! all "10!!!"...that drove me wild! obviously seeing everything from there on in...differently...

"Dumb insolence" my new tactic...no premeditated moves, but just dumb insolence...

"It's cold out here!? whoa...it really is..." unintentional toying words, yet again! escaping her lips...
this time; they sounded like the beckon of lust & desire... the first "parted" bodies, connects with playful gesture, then further connects with "unintentional" embrace (for the sake of body heat)

"I think it's time we go now..." she says; facing me with dancing eyes..."it's getting late! it's not like i have anything to do tomorrow, but i don't wanna get stranded out here!" OK! i replied, obviously dashing all thoughts of what i harbored before! (not like it was going to happen! gosh your mind is so warped!! you ought to be ashamed of your self) conversation of my mind to itself (that must be so far from that poor girls mind...aww...you sick bastard) bashing myself to death in my head...but then i remembered those nails!!... those nails were talking to me now!...despite all other distractions...them nails had me hooked!!

"iight then...let's go...!" we slowly picked up our cold bodies and began our journey to our "separate" places..."Maybe i should stay at your place!" intentional toying words escaped her lips...(WHAT!?...did she just say what i think she said? nah! she has got to be playin') Ok!? my reply, in certain nervousness! you gonna stay at me for the night?...my jarring question!..."YEA!" in surety she replied..."let me get some clothes first, and we'll go to your place!"

Mind you, this has never been rehearsed or even played out...

By this time, i'm in complete denial as to the entire nights proceedings....and in obvious shock to the previous statement made...to make a long story short....

"My apartment"
Dim lit "bachy" room with just enough room to turn around at slow pace; 1 piece of a TV, 1 half of a bed, 1 window with enough crack for stale breeze to pass through, 1 soul expectant !

Memorable words escapes her lips..."it's been 2 years! i don't even know what this should feel like!..."

Damn those nails!...

signed: tributary...for the resident "listener"

Panorama psyche

Picking my brain...again and again...daring never to stop! Yet again I've done what i thought i was done with sometime ago...

That paranormal sense of attraction, stimulating hormones of belligerence & sensuality! Causing the levitation of aspirations.

This "un named" phenomenon dazzles me with its nuance! always reminding me that at "most times" it is not intentional. "What do you see? what do you feel? what draws you to relinquish your ego?"

Grasp of such knowledge would only equate to the Garden of eden and the tree of life & death..."what you don't know, can't hurt you! But ignorance still kills!!..."

Risk of choice or knowledge, is the sole responsibility of the mind that wonders...cycle upon cycle, cell on cell...your psyche builds and breaks like rolling waves on the shores of elation; with each fading thought!

"Blocks of nothing stand high! steering the masses from the promise land" each persons' destiny is within, and is only obstructed by oneself! Allowances of distraction...serves only to show the weakness of one's mind...Padre' cries out to you..."serve only to build up! never to put down! serve only to engage, never to retreat!"

We are the creators of HAVOC, only amazing! how mere Grey matter can release the imaginative depths of hades...never once seen, never once experienced!...only described by the thoughts of other unheard men...a noisy few they are!

"what is it like? what would it be? how would it feel?"...questions that would've stayed unanswered if only man had stayed in his grace! not touching the forbidden fruit; that has not yet been identified!

"Are we eating it now?" would we still eat it, if we had only knew?...i submit to you!..."Choices made, are turns served, turns served, are courses charted!"

As mankind comes to its deserving end...i surmise; "life ongoing is not for the mortal minded at all, for with memory to that, our end would be served, shaken not stirred, with trillions of finales to come!!

Signed; seeker of wisdom, and Kingly understanding! for man is yet to fail...again!

Powerless = Humility

I begin with a simple yet profound question...

What is a Titan without it's power? I submit to you my answer...a mere "over sized" mortal!

I am being thought a great lesson...probably the greatest in my life! i deem it the "detox" phase

In some cases i have stripped myself of vanity, and fame! In others, i have been stripped of these very things...but as the old saying goes; "Old habits die hard!" I'm beginning to believe that more and more each day.

More than 2 years ago

Young, aspiring, determine professional! Didn't have a care in the world...Good Salary (check) Good Job (check) Resources to my leisure (check) Perfect social life (check) Prospective business (check)
What else could i ask for!? But as i went along...i grew to realize that life wasn't all about it's fancies! It was about your "moral satisfaction" and what changes you can make to gear this world to be a better place!....So

I began to "strip" slowly but surely...i began to do away with the big shot parties, the executive spending, and mall hunts, and the pristine "then" life

Transitions of having alot to not having at all! was the gargantuan turn of events!!! But, with its seeming hopelessness from time to time! it cause the even & solid betterment of a "moralized" life!

Daily introspection and constant evaluations were conducted..."gene by gene, strip by strip, follicle by follicle" i saw the hemorrhaging caused by life past!
Daily now! i treat the case with "de-toxicating of" and the "surrogating with"...it has led me to the point of "madness"


Never understanding what "Re-hab" meant until this season of change! hence my title...Powerless = Humility


I was dependent on life's "wants" rather than the Almighty's "needs", thinking that i'm doing the right thing...making clear the once cluttered corridor to my inner conscience, has now shown me how insignificant and purpose less i am without him! Thinking that a good job, lots of money, favour in man eyes was the whole "sha-bang" but life has just began at 23 for me!

As mentioned before in maybe one of my chronicles; i was accustom to the pronounced and paved course that was revealed to me nearing my coming "older years" But ever since my minds eye saw no further than this age that i have acquired recently! don't you think that some eventful not forgetting pivotal happening has come to fore!

I my friend; will allow history to write it's needed pages according to my destiny! i see no further now! i'm guessing because i need not to trust in my own flesh...because the hand of man fails! but the hand of God is sure & just!

Believing now that i am almost bone, going to marrow of myself's "death" nearing the new being that i was called to be...forgetting the past & its joys is and will never be, the easiest thing! but "the storm is heaviest when it's almost over..."

I pray the end of my storm, for my mind and old body is about to swallow me up, because i am weak!

signed: being of transition, under pressure by the past!

Moon Gazer...these are for you!

From day to twilight!

the seeming mending of foreign hearts took place where the shores were kissed by the sea!
Like us...ever so gently the kisses grew more and more with each passing "tide second".

Sweeter and sweeter, lingering "thoughts" fused minds and fantasies, causing us to wonder what the future of moonshine & seashore kisses have to offer!

Alas! the passing of the rays of a mischievous lunar being, the fading hours of circular invoking, lulls with each second.

Alas! a wondering soul is at rest until another 28 days and counting.

A period of "periods" if you may..., but leaves no blood with it's shining slash, only satisfied venus' and dead mars!

"Until another shining my orange arouser! Until another shining...i bid you until!"

But even with the pain of being prisoner to a rotating master! It hurts more knowing i cannot share my fired passion "legally" with a prisoner of "want"

For you my tender kisser! for you my moon whisperer! For you!

When our eyes would touch, along with our intentions and our reservations! Like my moon, i bid you...."until"

Sensual moonshine!

I've never written about the trials i face when my "lunar, rotating arouser" shines it's mono light features...

It first began in the early 90's..."sprouting teenage years" when images of panties & exposed flesh was the drive of my young mind! Stimulation, was the drug of the day...due to eventful discoveries of my evolving body!...

"I just thought that it was the current era that took its "enlarging" effects & speedway thinking! Little did i know, that like the seas, my tides were dependent on the "circular night blazer"

Ever since my revelation...I've hid and isolated my supreme weakness of the navy blue sky, ruler of the stars and night crawlers.

Unbelievably, the "mojo" i already own, triples in it's rays, primal senses of dark desires invoked in the very nearing of it's reign!

Lately, I've allowed a moon gazer to share the last evening of my 3day isolation from my "arouser" all i can say now, is that she's my moon after the shine, since her utterances of past!

Her words exactly:
"She sat relaxed in a fine, wooden piece of furniture. The "chair of bliss", she called it and willingly allowed her thoughts to "engulf" the radiant, luminous figure which stood erect in the moonlight sky.
The full, pale yellow beauty immediately reminded her of someone. Whom i'm sure is smiling wherever he is.
His name escaped her lips... Completely aware of the phenomenal effect it has on him. Eyes a glow and legs clasped firmly together, only the heavens knew what she thought of there after!" that was her first utterance that geared my mind as to what my moon gazer was thinking about there after...she further spoke of her past fond memories!

"Her name whispered!" was a soft masculine, familiar voice. Little did she know that her dreams were yet to be realized when a warm, all ecstatically consumed figure, crept up behind her; and skilfully glided his slender fingers across her cheek and behind her ear...now revealing, a once hidden and very bashful eyes. Full of feminine boldness and bliss beyond mortal understanding!

The hairs on her neck tinged in response to the amazing feeling which swept over them. They kissed...quite similar to the one on his 21st birth night celebration.

Bahama Breeze was the venue. As stolen lips wrestled! They both embraced a sexual experience with bitter-sweet difference, and slept peacefully that night..."

even with this second utterance...my lunar master, seemingly has no more hold on me, but in turn my shackles are traded over to a mental lust prison...locked up and clamped by the softest of seductive lips, honey like petals, with a sweet aura, and sticky encouragement for more...moon gazer further says...

"Drawn i was by the sinking softness of my pillow and moonlit beams dancing on my roof. They danced with passion, fueled with vigor. Cloudy eyes gazed earnestly, questionably loosing the battle with sinking softness. Then! wide awake, my eye lids batted, where do you go!? aired my shaken voice; Where do you go? Now clear and curious. Only to receive a meager response; 'We'll return...! Familiar folks and frenzy await us!...We waited...I wasn't ready! i flustered!

But before i can give voice to protest, my room went pitch black! I sat up and saw their pale yellow master taken by a cloud....i thought, 'if only life was so simple, predictable, imaginable!

I then surrendered to sinking softness...wished thoughts of a particular, peculiar friend, who not only brought memorable delight, but life long twilight dreams...lying side by side."

My eager redemption, may be closer than i think from and rising and fading circular friend...but until my key has been revealed, i can only sit and reminisce like my moon gazer!

Signed: The lunar sex slave, awaiting a fanfare of life long nocturnal fantasies!

Nauseous

Remember back in the day, you would leave something where you left it, and you would expect it to be the same way you left it!?

Well well well...has time surely shifted the course of many, and re-routed every mind & spirit!
It's almost as though i'm walking through "ground zero" but the buildings haven't been touched!

Frames, structures, concepts...all "look" the same, but drastic change has taken place... WITHIN!

It was my joy to return to the land of my naturalization...the land that made me who i am, the land that thought me what to do when things are down, and how to survive when all is lost...

But it seem as though the wise serpent hasn't fed itself it's curing venom! it's almost like being immortal! come to think of it, immortality is a great responsibility!

Think about it, to be born!...then to live...along with living, you watch those that you've shared your life, pains and joys with...to witness their passing, and you're still there! only left with a memory of what the past was, but nothing you can do can bring them back!...

To hide the hurt, you make no affiliations, because the next generation is on it's way in and out...but you are left as the constant present! Scary...i know...

That's how i feel...like i was in a time capsule...just waiting for the right time...to be reborn into the world we all know...but with each passing day of your "re entrance" you cringe and twist in fear and disgust when you see what the world has come to!

But with the "turn of the new age" i began to realize why old people behave the way they do!...


Food for thought!..it took me 1 year away from a green land to see eye to eye with the wisdom of the nation...

Don't wait until then...learn from my seeming mistake!

Signed: the bridge that you almost burnt to your destiny!

Just as i suspected!

Fear of the past thoughts i bore even before my evolution!! Came to "pass" in my present, i knew they were there! i tried to deny, cause i'm thinkin' that my new being would've scented the old world with my new aura! but WOW! was i wrong...

For the sake of self destruction, and the explosion to cause damages to alliances that i cherish to DEATH! I'll allow this old world to consume me...i'll die to self for the sake of others!

My usual cycle of life...

This is going to hurt SO BAD!!!

I break down just thinking about it!!...

I know that i've made mistakes, but i truly believe that isolation is my "living option"

signed: caterpillar
I will fly and be beautiful, upon my ascension in the open sunlight!