I'm here...now

My son!
I know what you must be feeling that this moment
Life has not been kind to you, and for this I'm sorry

"Sorry!" - a word often misused, with no real meaning behind it
"Sorry" - this word cannot be used to erase your pain
This word cannot distinguish the anguish you harbor
The many empty days it filled
The cold nights it held your hand and burnt you to sleep
This anger that has become your friend
I'm sorry I let it consume you

Yes I am angry

 Angry at you

Angry at the world

Angry at dads

Angry at the father I never had

My anger consumes me and makes me sad

Makes me mad!

MAKES ME WANNA GRAB

EVERY DAD!

AND FILL THAT VOID

THAT I CANT  AVOID

DAMN YOU DADDY

DAMN YOU!

If I could start it all over again, I would take it all back!
This does sound cliche
A page of faceless words
On a random day
Delivered to a nomad's address on the streets of dispear

"Why didn't he say them himself?"
"Why didn't he find me before?"
"Why didn't he stay?"
"Did he ever love me?"

I want you to know, I know these questions reside.
These questions, all of which I'll answer in time, but FIRST
Will you allow me to say I'm sorry and would you believe me?
To find the courage to face a boy, now a man!
Hardened by life's lessons without me
To ask him to accept me... back?

DADDY I WANT TO FOR GIVE

BUT ONLY IF YOU HAD GIVE……N

ME SOME OF YOUR TIME

INCULCATED VALUES AND TRANSFORMED MY MIND

IT’S ME YOUR SON

AM I SO DISCOURAGING TO LOOK UPON?

THE PAIN YOU CAUSED IT’S NO FUN

I WALKED I PACED I RAN

TO FIND YOU, BUT I FOUND THE GUN

I FOUND THE BOTTLE

I FOUND THE NEEDLE 

I FOUND THE PRISON CELL

I FOUND DIS SMELL

I FOUND HELL!!

BUT I GUESS I CANT LIVE

IF I CHOOSE NOT TO FORGIVE

BUT I GUESS I CANT LIVE IF I CHOOSE NOT TO FORGIVE(SLOWLY)

I know it will be hard, and i want to do my part.
To help you start again, "like me"
To give you love where you've had hate

to give you joy where you've had pain

For us to mend and be Father and son again!

Allow me to work from scratch!

to slave to gain your trust

because I've left you when you needed me most

here i am! as your prodigal Father

Forgive me my Son! Please!! 

I forgive you Daddy….(slowly)….

Written by KingLeonidas and Mark luke Edwards