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Take my hand and dance with me

hear the rhythm of my mood playing

glide with me... let's make music together

Soulful play as records spin

that rich sound that resounds

our bodies interplay

We loop forever, as you take my hand

and dance

to the beat that just might never end

glide with me...let's make music together

with each step

our feelings grow stronger

we stare deeper and hear hearts that beat together

taken fro tracks that sound eternal

take my hand

match my steps

feel my hand

sense my flow

glide with me

LET's MAKE MUSIC

together

Puppeteer

where crossed strings meet, i no longer wish to hold them

nothing can return the pure hands i once had

where hearts played with just feelings of joy

and freeness of what was... not what may brew

where strings were white... filled with cotton softness and purity

not filled with blood...not filled with tears

where crossed strings meet, i no longer wish to hold them

hanging sleeves, daggered hearts and broken wishes

hang heavy on these... strings... that... stain my hand

when eyes roll rivers, and mouths scream storms

when hearts stop beating, and thoughts grew cold

where records stop spinning and tunes go off key

the world stop swirling... all because of...

where crossed strings meet, i no longer wish to hold them

for nothing is a play, nor a scene, nor a frame

when no one can recognize themselves

when they can't stand on their own

this hand cannot hold the weight of it

carrying a league of "pieces and shards"

only collecting bad memories and scabs

shoulders have grown weary

eyes have dimmed grey...

when did this all start?

these hands no longer wish to stay

Till it hurts...

where goes you...?

and why do you go when i call you...?

how long would it be...

and when would it ever stop...?

I give you....

the things that can never be sustained in this life

My will is....

keep givin' and givin' and givin'

Self says to...

all way it does, but i never listen

why run to...

just stay! keep givin' and givin' and givin'

some crumbs too

even when right i'd swallow

pride says to...

but i'd keep givin' and givin' and givin'

and when all is wrong

in light of red and dark nights

sea winds change course...

turn cool right after

Stay calm you...

you'll be torn right through

but just smile...

i'll keep givin' and givin' and givin'

Frustrated, zero rated

heart's racing, pain chasin'

bone chilled, life stilled

but guess what... i'll keep givin and givin and givin'

till there's no more

when one day you'll know the score

when simple things get complicated

and you wonder where they came from

when one day that bulb will blow

and you'll wake in a dark room filled with gloom

thinking it was all you....

ummm ummm you ain't been caring and seeing the

givin' and givin' and givin'

What just happened?

and when its all said and done...

you're still alone, thinking to yourself

"what just happened?"

Disappearing in the wink of an eye

periods cannot rest in the wrath that builds

the once warm spirit freezes over

No one can understand

no one can say! they cannot see

it just disappears

without a trace a switch is flipped

carried cross over to no wonder

but share anger...

No return for a friendly follower

a chilly shoulder sheds ice

and stabs fear right into your core

but no one understands

no one can... warmth just disappears

shallow...very shallow seas wash

the whirlwind spreads further

every soul in a frenzy

because no one can understand

no one would know...

what has flipped

what has swung

"where is everyone?"

...alone and unrecognizable

you turn stranger even to yourself

and then you think

"What just happened?"

In response... (S.I.P)

"S.I.Pin and R.E.M's"... while stretching my hands forth to a spirit that's a person

the one that stands but never believes where she is, or where she might be.

While suns dream... earths collapse...

all heavenly well but no earthly good

while days go by and we've not passed "go"

i'll dream with you

in lifetimes apart...but we're still together

I've touched a stone that has a heart

thinking about a part of me that drifts to your world

and as it goes, i go with it

watching you evade me...building dams that can't hold your sea

but maybe that's best... where...

we meet in dreams unending...

where our eyes first met

where her touch I've felt

where a birth can be had

where obstacles just make us dream more

we're all the sunshine the earth needs...

dream with me...

Blank stare

Within that blank stare
You never know what it really, truly means...

Within that quiet still posture
Several deaths at a time
The heart stops and restarts again

Bodies contemplating the unfairness of life
The un- seemingly shallow hope
The painted face that has none

Just a statue!
A pillar of despair...
The world no longer has colour within that stare

The heart cries
And no one listens
No one can, but that soul that sobs with it

But all seems well on the outside
From the "looks" of things nothing could possibly be wrong

Just another beautiful lie
That holds tight to breath
Not even wanting to release it
For that is all they have to own

No longer in control
A tear seeps out beneath shaded eyes
But again! No one see's
no one cares!

Just another beautiful lie
That no one can figure out
And everyone takes for granted

That blank, colourless, hopeless stare...
It means something!

One to another

like a switch
it all changes from love to hate
or is it hate to love



changing lanes
no instance of regret in first steps
sudden tumbles throw us down and make us ugly


its the ego
the drift to make the push faster
the channels never sync after lost contact


remembered more
but couldn't care less of what you though
didn't want to go on with that


"were" now "not at all"
perfect lovers stricken to perfect strangers
the pride inside holds our hearts together


we'd look and still ask
"am i remembered?"
"i wonder... if i'd..."


never again...
only in the light air we'd probably exchange words
words that meant more than the wind that carried it


only then we'd know how we truly forgot
what we wanted to feel
one for the other


but it hurts so bad
it hurts so bad to watch you wonder
watch you wonder away


its got me buggin'
would these memories ever fade
or would they stay...

The dreams we live to be together

In the still of the night I hear your heart beat.
Nearly ticking to the rhythm parallel to orbits.
Outside of this world in the time of another that waits for you...

With each passing second
Your heart draws closer to the time you both shall end to tick as parallels
But to start to tick in unison, making time instead!
Making worlds in spaces you breathe upon

Resting your eyes on each other...
As time ticks and ticks again to try to end
We step into eternity to start once more!
Where time is no more and new memories unfold together...

In time, to tick in line, to tick... Forever
Isn't it clever...

The dreams we live to be together

Vowed to poetry

they tried to take you to get to me!
how else would they have known what can kill me?

they know that we're together!
they know that we're one!

they've tried to pull us apart!
but it's the pull in us that brings us together

"no matter the weather..."
remember!
that's what we said in our younger days!
when i first met you...
"too young to know, but too old to care"

lady you define me!
you even refine me!
my lines within you breathe...
...you complete me!
and i am forever yours

you are like no other!
no one can match you
without you by my side
i will relapse boo!

poetry i adore you
you are my special lady
and now you've found a body
that's drivin me more crazy

just like i imagined
what i wanted you to be
with hands that are beautiful
and lips that's sticky

ummm...
"poetry and me! we shine together
me and poetry yea that rhymes much better"

but no matter what comes our way at all
its by similar last names we'll both be called

although they've tried to come between
My queen! we've come through clean

so through the rain
through the heat
through the lightening
through the thunder

any man tries to dis you!
he made a big blunder!

through the rain

through the heat

through the lightening

through the thunder

since we've joined together

we'll only part six feet under

Cocoa butter

Smooth n' tight...
everything a mother would love and lots more to choose from
sista's got the right swagger
the right mix of suga n' spice and all things nice!

baby's movements are pronto
wouldn't want to get it twisted tho
mami's got the sharp attitude with pretty moods that'll make you giggle

lips so sweet
she's pretty and neat
she'll hit you with a heart attack!
cause baby's got mad back

she's too much to live for
brother might kill for her
she's got that loyalty on simmer
sista cocoa butter

thick and quick to make your heart melt
you'll never know where she'll take you
trap you in a box called "boo"

but never mind that...
she's the cat you're after
in sorrow and in laughter
keeping you in that honey gaze
pushing hugs by surprise

she's too smooth
too memorable
the sista that stains you if you don't treat her right
or keep her right
forever under your skin

Cocoa's loveable
huggable and powerful
grips you in all the right places
and keeps you sane in the purest love she gathers

Cocoa's better...
that cocoa butter
cocoa butter...
she'll love you forever!

For your eyes only (F.Y.E.O)

i saw the full moon within your stare
gestures of oblivion emanated from mine, in pity of you
we were about to sail.
To be the embodiment of sheer ecstasy

the wind blew right
the sand between our toes gave us the sense of reality...
but not for long

as the wind blew
it swished the scent i most enjoy about my nostrils

already intoxicated by your aura
i gulp every drip of you
carefully holding my glass...
i kiss your neck passionately

with passions gone crazy
we rock in the constant swing of our orbit
we both grip tighter into our bodies
drinking crazily of passion and shared thoughts

dripping beads of due love
boiling blood and racing hearts gel within lips

softer and softer they became
while wondering hands greeted strangers that were twin
welcoming them to make them comfortable with a familiar hug and squeeze

your hair rhythmically brushed my face
causing my skin to grow among other things
i yearned for your touch

i drank you more!
causing my head to spin and feet to float
sending me "heavenward"
being melted into you with each passing second

we wildly danced the dance
like there's no tomorrow
i sank myself further in your stream of dreams and warmth
feeling nothing but high within you

constantly stroking... your hair!
to evoke that scent that makes me weaker for you
causing the rise of affection to be unbearable

as we glide on top seas so smoothly
riding waves to meet its peak...

my ear twitches
awaken from the world i held as my own
wet... and... sticky...

For your eyes only!

Roller coaster

Carried and tried on a track of more uncertain leadings

Feelings flare over and over and over again...

but this is kin between 2 friends that were not alike

one day up, next day down

deepest ditch, highest cloud

away and away...

that's where my heart goes

away and away within a fight to stay leveled

no equilibrium held steady

like a passing thought...

there goes our laughs

like a blowing wind...

there goes our happiness

steady for about a moment

one can hardly remember what they were

what is felt like...

or how much we cared to be in its embrace

we try to find where the passing wind escapes to

where it bundles to cry

where it stays, not wanting to sail again

that place must be magical

where sorrows are none

and laughter is eternal

but where i am...

where we are...

is a constant turn and tumble

i fight to smile

u do the same

and how did we start this fight again?

we always never know...

Each day...

i grow stronger in the nuances of your voice

grow stronger with the silent agreement and the nod of your head

Wielding power in great words

as they circle my mind! I'm pressured by my pen to praise you!

And shout it from the mountain tops

How does flesh prevail just after sin?

to write an ode in honor of your name!

where does sin go? where does guilt go in your eyes?

you've died in vision of seeing this day!

that moment, that move!

before this pen meets paper to say...

"I'm Sorry!"

Before these eyes are closed to say...

"Forgive me!"

Rinsed in water, cleansed in blood!

you revive me! and make me new again!

to sing again!

To make me sure again!

and to see me walk in you...

with you...

because i need you now more than ever

to make me stronger!

WISER!

to make me...

ALIVERRRRR!!!

More than ever

Its now more than ever that strength is needed.
Now more than ever that odds must be made even
No place for insecurity or suspicion
The place for faith draws nearer and nearer.

Its now more than ever
Where destiny calls! And ill will is planned to befall you.
Where obstacles are hurled to detour you! Possibly wreck your future.
As steps draw closer to golden gates and lofty heights. Closets burst with dark shadows and lurking memories of gloom and doubt

Its now more than ever that I need you by my side.
To keep me resolute and steadfast
Where all effort will be in you, with you and for you
Its now more than ever Lord!
Now more than ever that I'd need you...

Never enough

It has not come to that place of satisfaction.
Nothing can suffice

At will and in danger of an insatiable appetite.
Wanting more and more

Need not consume
Living on the company of a thought
Just the illusion of having

The more you do, is the more nothing is done!
The eternal play is left on loop
Adding more and more to the plate of life

Nothing has satisfied
Nothing can satisfy!!
Feeling empty as the feast swells larger

I can never do enough
Always wanting more of myself
Searching in a bottomless pit
In an endless quest for the end

Never enough!
Enough is never
Yet I thirst for it

Only to know it cannot satisfy
But yet...
I thirst!!

Alone

This will have no bearing on feelings still
Alone at will with no return to warmth
Bashful, crazy memories haunt us

Slipping slowly back to rigid emotions that pick away fear
Staring right back at "happy" times that grew no fulfilment

I'm locked in the cage of my own heart
Running mad in the sorrow of pent passion
Spewing to love again with no weight to carry

Scared of my own love that consumes worlds on end
Where has the world gone! Pushing me to the edge of a cliff

Give me wings so I can soar in the height of no return
Too far gone! I won't give love a chance

Monk to me and me
Alone to be
To be alone with no one to call my own

As the heart cries no tears
Alone!
Alone I will be with my emotions
Alone to dream who that will be
Alone... With me!

Fallen no more

Fallen off your own
no one to turn to but the shadow alongside you
no one to pick you up and dust you off

fallen off your own
no one to lay blame on
the entire room is empty with you and your thoughts that blame "YOU!"

fallen off your own
drives your ego into fury
makes your spirit sick and cries

fallen off your own
kissing dust and being swallowed
a shattered shaken miserable soul

Fallen!
doing bad all by yourself
dreaming problems just to feel better

making enemies of loved ones
breaking hearts and feelings to live on
feeling stronger in the belly of the beast

Swallowed!
wallowing in the company of despair
dressed in shards of broken emotion
no friend to identify the pieces

Alone! Fallen Alone!
tripped on your own ego
popped off your own head being swollen
gettin high on the air that you breath

a duplicate of yourself
you try to double the numbers
making everything negative your friend

rolling with renegades
feeding the sharks of fools
growing, getting colder everyday

Fallen!
in that quite moment
that small still voice whispers
"Get up"

Awaken!
shaking from the daze
can't live with your mind anymore
silence is too loud a call on your ear

the voices all scream at you
tugging you back
pulling you back
rushing your memory of the moments you've shared

how happy you seemed in blindness and misery
contemplating the mix of things
tryin to split with things

Risen!
no longer on the ground
now happy with no frown
only shining with that crown of laughter

Thinkings of back then are no more
Fallen! no more
Fallen no more!

Calling

it calls deeper...
within the clamour of mixed thoughts and voices
it calls deeper

one can never escape the destiny to which it was created for
neither can a man out run his shadow
the more you run, is the more it clings to you

it speaks clearer...
in silence it screams echoes
churning all that was once alseep
caressing the longing and emptiness that swells

sooth yourself in my arms
let me speak to you
drink my voice
let me carry your sorrows

I call for you!
you hear me call...
be not confused! be not ashamed

i've called you for such a time as this
where all rides heavier
the entire world shakes
yet you hear my still, calm voice

Call to me...
listen to my voice and call to me
tarry no longer for i wait for you

your booming mind, and thoughts that chime are distracting you
hear me call! i call for you!
i've called for you, i'm calling you, i will call you!

stretch your ears and grab my words
until you stand steadfast
in the power of my might

call to me...for i have called you
for such a time
such a time as this

Inside, out

you can never hold the east and the west together
its either or, neither nor

straddling the worlds of good and evil
can cause strife and triumph
the balancing act of being here and there

eyes and dreams will dim in this escapade
rolling thoughts make you wonder
straying away, away, away...

the air gets thinner in the atmosphere
you cannot breath its too mixed
nothing is still everything’s' a blur

clutching hands about your neck try to bring you back to life
impeding the feelings that boils over and over
the entire room is spinning outta control

too many things bring memories
memories of where you don’t ever wanna be
the best of both worlds can never be had

Heavy on my mind

Within and only within these hours
Would the sun set on my heart

My eyes cry no tears before this season
The running thoughts stride for the sun to hold its decent
Wishing the days drew longer

Her slipping soul reached out to me
I slipped further in despair

Covering my heart
Drowning myself in false love
The painless momentary

Never can one forget how I felt to wake to no sunrise
Opened eyes to the bleak bleak winter of my empty soul

I cried ice blocks
My hung head dropped heavier
Where my boy stalled in no warmth

The thoughts came back in the sun…
Chilling my spine and my emotion
I can never hear the ray of sun in her voice

My soul echoes…my soul hallows
My soul cries as the sun sets
I wish I had more time to love her more

To heed the cry of her slipping soul
R.I.P (E.F)

Piece by piece

Where... How...
Too fragmented for likes of normal readers
Too broken! Too sparsed!

When it goes... The mind itself rotates
Wind and "wind" put motion together seeks peace amoung tree tops
Why...? Gone too far!

Will make no sense of this
Mixed emotions, played feelings, changed characters
Want this! Need this to be a "shordy"

No inspiration that's worthy of my pen
Done with you... Till help comes crawling back
Gone... Gone...Gone

Too filled to make sense
Fragmented!
No Space to claim a Page

No space!
No space for new
No not new you

Oblivious, Oblivion

Walking with a burden that was never held
gliding on a tight rope that's as wide a canyon
in this state, there is no pain
only oblivion

many days saw her hugging her thoughts
sleeping with her imagery
arguing with the mirror
walking in his shadow

she wrote letters that were never posted
blew kisses that never flew
fluttered without leaving the ground
in this state, there is no pain
only oblivion

She took his face everywhere
pasted it on every fling and voyage
smiling to herself in words it spoke on the shoulder of another
digging deeper and deeper in her world with him

"when will i ever tell him?
what would i ever do?
how would i ever love him?
where will he know it's true?"

now the time has come
"where has the time gone"
"i thought you always knew?"
...

you shared some many days with me
you slept so many nights
i thought you always knew...
that i.... yes... I
Love you
...

I always walked without the burden...
without the burden of her love
without the knowledge of her glare
without the terrible of her stare

with ever step i took
it was away i strayed
strayed in the arms of another
never...knowing...hers

though you've held me, i've never felt your arms
now she's gone
with me never knowing
in this state...
I'm still Oblivious

I'm Sorry, but it's good now

I hadn't any clue that it was this complicated to leave a comment on my blog. I've only just realized it!!
(and nobody even told me before… :S )

Well that's fixed now! And I hope I’ll be seeing a whole lot more comments now that I’ve fixed it!

Thanks so much to the people that persevered and made sure they left a comment. Thank you so much for sharing.

I'll be doing a whole lot more now, I think I’ve broken through my "mental block" so just expect more poetry and thoughts from me in the coming future.

As you may have noticed, "I've changed my pen a bit" but it's only for the benefit of all people everywhere, big or small.

Thank you so much for your support through the years, and yes! I'm working on that book! :D

Until...
Leonidas

The written release

The "written release" sends you further than the cosmos
gives you wings, sets you free!

That's where i wanna be
every time i write or rhyme

never wanna place that period
never wanna let this pen go

on and on and on
till this pen slows!!

and even then! i'll let my mind go
writing on the window of it

i could never get enough of this
sheer bliss in this word mist

Always goin up!
never comin' down to the ground of no creativity
it's sin to me not to think!
to me that's a catastrophe

and any country or plain that doesn't give you this claim
it's a travesty

Don't cling to me
if in poetry or prose you can't sing to me

You'll be blind in my eyes
if in these words you can't rise

you need to come up higher
you need to come up higher

make music with your thoughts, there's nothing wrong with that
there's venom in every line, that you can counteract

the punk in you
and every living thing that makes you blue

the rhyme in you!
all you got to do is let it rise in you!

It's no surprise! it's true
you too can gain the peace
in the written release!

In due season

With seasons changing
the world turns another day
slowly drifting into another unknown era of time

"What comes again?
if nothing is new under the sun?"
yet, lives and experiences are all born

The old grows weary
withering themselves for the greater good of the earth
giving back all energies they've borrowed

"But why has the wind changed?
where has the sun gone with this turn?
why does the day darken?"

The world is sad...
unfamiliar things are now friends
it must learn to start all over again

"But why has the season changed?
why must the old wither?
where am i to be familiar?"

Nothing left but to spin and wait
wait on patience and time
lest the sky falls in anxiety

as the world turns slowly...
slowly does my heart shed...
slowly i transform with the season

For nothing is new under the sun
i've lived this time before in spirit
but i've gone afar in flesh

Now i seek recourse
finding memories within my meditation
craving directions in my hearts' walls

Turn... and let me be
Turn...and... let me be!

Whatever in whoever you are

The abundance of my heart cries
soulful ballads ring in my veins
wanting to love you more and more
afraid that if i confess it, i would cause it to manifest

I know my words!
i feel them everyday...
there's no great control i hold
than the mold i hold in power
the strength of my letters

I need not confess!
but i am in love with you
whatever in whoever you are!

i beg my heart not to cry
but i must be strong in spite of...
I can only cry with you!
'cause You alone know me

Whatever in whoever you are
i need the me in you!
I've tried to lock myself away
but this is innate

I will run!
maybe never return when i do
But i'll always love...

I cry to grow calm
not to let my lips utter your name
it's driving me insane, the pain i've caused

But i'm looking to a deeper source
hopin you will too!
my mind goes 'round and 'round
cause i can never figure out... "you"

whatever in whoever you are
Hold yourself for me
one day i know i'll do it myself
because it's destiny

Praise Lines

"He shall pour out his spirit upon all flesh"
therefore my spirit glistens and smells of sweet smelling myrrh

Clad in his glory
Casting darkness away in steps that are ordered

This temple must proceed to proclaim his name
it is not to be found crippled or lame
Lurking in lust or wallowing in shame


Many are the plans of a mans heart
thinking thoughts that are as sharp as darts
"I don't wanna go back, from where i had to start!!"

Only through searching and reading his word
have i heard his plans for me
he walked the journey and bore nail scared hands for me!

He and he alone is worthy
and for this i sing in poetry

for he alone can understand
the words i possess in my hand
to turn them into praise through phrase

TO worship him in spirit and in truth
and to deepen my roots in him.

to flourish for man to see
his wisdom in my pages of poetry.

Simplistic

The lessons of life are told within the simplest of language
the construction of straights and curves
speaking only to the principle at hand

it is not the verbose collection of adjectivals’ or antecedents
rather in the fluent construct of imagination and potent words

painted imagery in the mind of the orator
fragmented speech, gains volumes of knowledge

framed in peasantries, clad in simplicity
the mouth of wisdom shapes plainly in sight

the life we live is simple
but it's the curiosity of understanding that clouds our judgment

the system rolls onward
while lessons go unlearnt

that is the complexity amidst our simplicity

Inadequate

Intimidated by sounded air...
vibrating chords that bare no malice or rebuke
twists the ear of the timid listener

Shaking eyes and crying hands
gears go round and round
wrapping itself immovable

nothing has happened
but all is wrong...
trying to find peace in troubled seas
"why?" the question brews within
but no one can answer

enemy to yourself...
all steps taken forward are always reconsidered
never sure of your movement

mere breathing more normally
the gaze of a plain face
speaks volumes to you own idiosyncrasy

no world has ever pronounced...
no being has ever confirmed...
yet you feel inadequate?!

No Flesh

In the beginning there was me
without an ear to hear or an eye to see!
Mentally, it was to be

In the beginning there was spirit
Never "spare it", but respect it
for it is in it i live, move and breath

So to begin with, i never heard you
i thought you...
You never heard me, but you felt me
I can never say...
for i never spoke with lips for you to understand
but with the utterance of my "word"

These things i can only do in flesh
and flesh i am not!
You can only feel me with it!
within it i live, move and breath
within it i have my being!

It is not your place to see me!
that is, what is before you...
"Evidence of things not seen"

That's what you must have to speak to me!
without it..."you're dead!"

Let it occur to you, whenever you become!
"i am only spirit!
you are not if you want to hear me speak with lips of flesh!!
the spirit leads and advises"

Feel the spirit of my words...
the words...are your beginnings.

It is her i want Pt.2

I'll speak of her forever
for every breath i take it's in her

I seeketh her forever
for it is her i want
the answer to all i've questioned
i pleaded her, never to hide herself from me

Chained about my neck, she has locked my purpose within her grasp
fed me fingers of milk and honey
caressed me in incense, frankincense, and myrrh
clad me in velvet robes trimmed with gold
and taught me tongues of old

her sisters cared for me
insist i stay betwixt her love
"My son, attend onto my words... seek her diligently!"

she has led me to my master
revealing all things unto me which is his will
she is DIVINE!
Holy and full of life
My staff
my comfort
my constant companion

"Length of days is in her right hand
and in her left hand riches and honour
her ways are ways of pleasantness
and all her paths are peace

She is a tree of life to them that lay hold upon her
and happy am I to retain her

She is mine...
to have and to hold
for richer for poorer
in death we'll never part

I'll speak of her forever
for she is wisdom
WISDOM is she!

Mustard Seed

In light of the spirit...
spirit growing with the fear of the world
not conformed but existing within...

Seed like...within itself...within...
in core of the spirit...
feeds on waters that run deep

In caves of the globe
around principalities and 'strong holds'
lay dormant men that chase thousands
paired in power, one accord...splits Hades wide

In core of the flesh
runs blood 'twain', chosen either...
holds to find one master between...
black and white in 'grey'

Seed spirit grows in words of light
sprung wet and potent through words within my bosom
flesh dries more, grows cold in heat
as coals heap higher to harden my bones

Hide it within your folds, lock it amoung your verses
cause you wrath to hedge my soul
within your wings
within your shadow

As flesh withers
i am your friend
as flesh withers
seed spirit grows mighty within "HIM"

The Human Condition

In confusion... we as men scurry to find answers
involved in the "wanton" struggle towards perfection
by all means do we seek to find what we cannot

In confusion...we strive to know who our accusers may be
suspicions drive hoards of questions to plague the mind of peoples near and far
the stampede grows more, while waving the flag of our pride..."ONWARDS!"

In confusion...we seek to bare no shame
hold to no reason to believe we are accused
forget the past and masks we wore to dance beneath the mud

In confusion...we are children, arrogant, ignorant and soft
baring malice to those who we love; but in our eyes "offend"
scheming mind games; to whom may lose and whom may win

In this season, we're more lost than found
murdering the only thing that held us in such times
the trust that so easily betrays us...
because we've never truly trusted

That is the human condition.

My apology

“Shoulda never left you”
Cause it was you I’d run too…
In my mind, all the time
On the grind, as I whine
It was you…

“Shoulda never run to…”
The things that would hurt you
The lying, deceivin’ and schemin’
That was never you boo!
So why did I do…?

“Shoulda never maimed you”
Cause I disclaimed you!
Misplaced you, disgraced you
Now I’m here for part 2

I always knew it was you…
That carried me and married me
Made me happy and carefree
It was you that was by my side eternally

Now I need you to take me and make me
Twist me and shake me
So we can be what we used to be
Poetry and floetry
Mo’ a me and mo’ a we!
Lovely and beautifully
Mo’ an you and mo’ a me
Mo’ a me in poetry

You know!!!

As much as you may think that I hate the best bone in you…
It’s the opposite!!

As much as you think that I’ve hidden; I’ve acted beyond plain sight
As much as you thought I was acting; I did it thinking I’d protect you!
As much as you think I don’t care; I care too much to see you cry again!

As much as you think I am hard; I’m putty within a shell
As much as you think I don’t think; my mind is going through HELL!

As much as you think I don’t miss you!... I DO!
And as much as you think that these are just words…
They’re the words that would get through to you!

As much as you think I’m away! I ALWAYS THERE!!
If the memory of what was is worth as much as this page
I’d write this poem again and again

Because for as much as you think that I’m cold as stone
These words would always stay here
To point your way home

Silent tears...

Silent tears fall the hardest
They are the salt of despair seeping slowly beneath your heart
Rendering it lifeless…

Each beat slows its pace
Beating deeper and slower
Deeper and slower…
Until it stopppssss….

….eyes behold its last glimpse
Silently a tear drop falls
Rippling in the sea of the unknown
Spreading to its last…

No one knows!
No one will!
Happened in isolation…
Silent tears…

Hidden

In the darkness rolls a storm
Rumbling to and fro about
Searching endlessly…
Simply craving

In this rustling thunder
Lovers find peace between eyelashes
Never blinking as it all unfolds
Within the stars and moons above

Creeding, pleading
“come for ME!” I wait for you…
Even betwixt the storm covered sky
Admist the rolling thunder
Your call is clear…

It goes unheeded…
That call leads souls to one fork in the road

Call… call…
Call…clearer…
That your voice may be followed
It soothes and linger in the air,
That unclear scent in the fog and mist
Till morning comes again
Your voice lingers
Bitter…sweet…
Voice

The gap to fill...

It’s the dust that forms pleasure and pain
Dust that brings bloodshed and shame
Can anything good come out from among dust?

Bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh
Barely holds my hand and yet makes dust melt

It’s the dust that defines us and the rib that carves
That “hollow” that haunts and always seeks to be found
The space that yearns to be filled even by one unworthy

Within the emptiness and longing
Winding between the spaces were the hands that held the time
Stolen moments froze the warmth of previous lifetimes
Never forgotten, just suspended as my heart burnt with jet fuel

Found but lonely
Rediscovered and scared
The floodgates have cracked in the opposite direction
It’s too late to defend
Watch the waters flow

Torn…
Every river has two banks

Black Ink

This secret will no longer be
no longer should it stay within in the ink of my pen
you will shed no tears!
you salt and wet were cried before by another and my pen

You will not be appalled
for as you read within the lines the message will sing between
You would've heard this before
No! you're ears haven't deceived you
but they have excused you

You had to have heard this within you skin
within the deepest cave in your mind
without saying a word, you'll react

Almost like telepathy, you'll read me
maybe within an epiphany you'll never forgive me
but this secret is for you to see not hear

The words can never be uttered
our hearts i'd wish not to shatter
for this secret is as black as this ink
deep as my thoughts and ugly as sin itself

This secret will no longer be
and after....maybe not even "WE"

It is her i want...

Begging to kiss her lips for the first time
time was clear and eternal for that kiss to happen

Begging to touch her hand and have her embrace a charcoal soul
a soul that can soar with the God that has made it strong

Begging to look upon her face,
to stand within her stare, to be washed of all unknowing

Begging to feel her love, the warmth of her touch, the sense of her...
Wisdom