in thought

Confusion never cut so deep into my flesh
burning even my marrow...
I’m frozen in pain

I once guarded my heart from all villains that were once in search of it
but now I’ve released the life string

I cry silently, showing no sorrow for the loss I’ve suffered
the very loss of my soul!!
all gone in my head, are the memories i once held dear to me
replaced by wonder and discomfort, no will to go on, but just "to give in"

I’ve suffered this faith time and time again!
maybe it is my time to surrender...
to sterilize my heart, mind and soul with the press of that "restart" button

Forgetting the attempts I’ve made to get on course
erasing the pain I’ve caused and many received
renewing my heart and my love for "you"

But life does not offer such luxury!
this is the "black and white" world
No matter what you do...
how far you may go...
how much you may say "i love you"
Pain is pain, and it will always be the same


I've guarded my heart...
i feel none the wiser for letting it go again...
and now i remember the pain...
The pain i feel...
the "feel" i feel inside

"Will i ever love again"