The first time

It was that first time
she could never quite get that feeling
No matter how much she gives it up!
Repeating the same strokes and positions
the feeling just ain't the same as the first!

That first time she was forced to lay and not disobey the commanding voice over her
that first time she found out where things go as they grow!
and how hard life can really get!

that first time she didn't hop on a roller coaster!
bet felt dizzy just the same!Screaming and gripping at everything thing in her reach
"I wanna get off this thing!"

That first time she got that filling sensation on an empty stomach
drinking the juice of sweat and spit!

That first time she was flung and hung
bounced and rammed all over the room
and bleed from one cut

It was that first time she'd never forget the scent and colour of violation
the squeeze and grip of platonic love gone wrong!
The grin and eyes of her bother leaving the room...

It's the first time she layed there...
the stillness fills the room..
silence deafens her and knocks her senseless
never to return again!

It was that first time
she went in search of it
trying to get her worth back...
she had to find it...
The only way she can come clean again

that first time turned dozens and scores
defeating all whores, cause she's queen bitch with a ROAR!!

But it just wasn't quite the same!
LIKE THAT FIRST TIME!
that cynical love that tripped her unconscious
There had to be another she can contain and make him make her back!
Break her back! Slap her back!
Jam her back to that first time...

Addicted to pain; that's worst than cocaine, she numbed herself...
Grooving to the rhythm of life as the tune is stuck in her head like a broken record!
"AH! AH! AH! SHH AH!"

It's since 15 that first time!
now 25 throwing another one down the drain...
never can she maintain her own flesh and blood because of "Dick - Shun"

It's that first time she longs for
time that can never be repeated
she'll always be mistreated till her breath is no more!

It was that first time he took her soul away!
she never thought he'd do such a thing
Now! she's at his door...
"YES!! the pretty little whore you've made me"

She grabs him; knife in hand
"take me back! Give me my soul again!"
He trembles! his shoes get wet...
looking into the eyes of a wonderer near her quest freedom

it was that first time...
"AHH! AHHH!! AHHHH!! shhhh ahhhhh.....
that record played to the end...