Visionary

She always saw it in me!
She never let it slip…
She’d always have me higher than any other!

You see, she knew me when I didn’t
She believed in me when I couldn’t
She saw me today when I didn’t even believe in tomorrow

I shunned her
Told her things any typical wonderer would
Shut myself up by telling her she’s crazy

Crazy to believe that “I” can be
Crazy to believe that “I” is we!!
Crazy to believe the lies “I” told
Crazy to believe the stories “I” rolled

But through it all… thick and thin
She’d be there, for me and everything.
Never have I had another woman that looked past my ills
To have her whisper and say “I love you” come what may!

We hooked up because of racing hormones
I didn’t know I was busting my “brake’ cables
Stabbing her with my words
Slashing her with my actions

“When a woman’s fed up…
there is nothing you can do about it!!”
I’ve pushed away her love
Driving her to her knees, seeking her God

Tear filled nights
Heart wrenched days
She worked to make me stay
But I just wanted to play

Now years have passed
I’ve hopped and skipped in other girls
Never again finding one like her

Now I’ve steadied my head
Straightened my vision
Sharply interpreting my mission
Clearer than any midday

“but she’s gone …
Never to be by my side again!”
I see her in another’s arms
Wishing to wonder if her love is the same?
If he even has a clue how deep her love runs?

Now I see the visionary
The path that I have paved with her by my side
Now I walk the pave, All alone!!
Regretting that I didn’t wake soon enough

“The Black woman sees love in white lights,
Trimmed with gold, charted with silver, weaved
with the blood of herself and sweat to seal it.
Protected by angels, all locked by her lips.

Sorry in any language cannot erase the hurt I’ve caused
But thank you for believing in me. If even NOT IN LOVE.